Most of us have heard the story of David and Goliath. Young David defeats grizzly Philistine. Not only does he defeat him, but he is calm, cool, and collected because he is confident that the Lord will deliver this victory. He has experienced God's deliverance from bears and lions in the pasture and is sure that God won't fail him now.
In the story, though, one passage stands out: David chose five smooth stones to get the job done. He knew God would deliver him, but he had to take some responsibility for his own actions.
Since the process of deciding to self-publish my novel began, I have been rewriting, editing, tweaking, critiquing and criticizing, fretting, studying, and rearranging the manuscript. Finally though, last night at 10:30, I uploaded the final edit to my publisher.
Fear was weighing me down, like an invisible ball and chain. What if no one likes it? What if I missed something? What was I thinking? You know...the usual self-talk of someone who believes their entire future rests in their hands. All my angst was leaving no room for God to have the victory.
Then this morning, I realized, like David choosing his stones, that I have done the best I can. And I am trusting God with the outcome.