I followed a truck for a few miles today with an "OVER SIZE LOAD" sign across the back. I felt like I was looking in a mirror. Without going in to a lot of personal detail...yes, I realize this is out of character...this is exactly how I felt. Weighed down beyond my ability to handle things.
And actually, this is not a bad place to be.
I started doing the Experiencing God Bible study by Henry Blackaby and yesterday's study posed the question: What is going on in your personal life that you can't handle without God?
I couldn't think of anything specific. Yeah, I mean, there's stuff, but I feel like I have a pretty good handle on it.
Then more stuff gets piled on. Before I know it, I'm totally relating to the backside of a truck.
In that moment, I prayed that God remind me I am not carrying the load by myself. As a matter of fact, He invites me to bring it to Him (Matthew 11:28), and I do. I pray that whatever the day holds, I handle it in a way that honors and glorifies Him, in a way that shows that He makes a difference.
I had a chance to spend some time in Psalms, resting in His sovereignty. He will handle and redeem all things, not always in a way we would hope in our earthly perspective, but in a way that matters for eterntiy.
I listened to my favorite David Crowder song, All I Can Say, and reminded myself that wherever I'm standing, I'm not there alone.
I am not beaten down without hope, just weary. And weary is my cue that I've been carrying the oversized load myself.
If this post is like looking in a mirror for you, take heart, my friend. The invitation stands for you too.
When you are ready, check out this song and let the words wash over you.