Thursday, February 21, 2008

Backseat Drivers

"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him." Psalm 37:7. This was the answer God gave to me the other night when I was bugging Him from the backseat, wondering where we are going. I am reading a really good book that I bought at the retreat called "What Happens When Women Say Yes to God." I definitely feel like He's got something big for me. Something exciting to be a part of. And I definitely am not sure if He's told me what that is yet. Did you ever feel like that? I was praying before I did my FRCC journal that God would reveal His plan for me somehow, and that it would be made more clear by other events in my life, whatever those might be. Then I read Psalm 37. Okay, Lord, I will wait til tomorrow then before you tell me. Thursday, Friday, and Saturday are busy church-activity related days this week. Maybe You will reveal Yourself then. So, as I type this, I am not at my Thursday meeting waiting for lightening to strike. I am home with three small children, two of whom are sick. While I am not being still (I wish!), I am definitely still waiting. Part of me says, this can't be all You have for me. You want to waste my gifts and talents at home, in my own house?! What about all of our plans, God? Or were those just my plans waiting for Your seal of approval? I heard a quote once that said the most important work you will ever do will be inside your own home. And here I am again, back in Ninevah. Trying to submit.

2 comments:

  1. It's hard, isn't it? But, that is where the faith comes in...when we don't know where we are headed and we are faithful either way.

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  2. Hi Debbie,

    I love how real you are on your blog. And I loved your blog title - Live from Ninevah! Very cute.

    I can so relate to your post. I had sick child last week and just knew I needed to be getting ready for my calling - the powerpoint for Friday night at the retreat. But God kept telling me to care for "first things" like my family.

    It's hard - like Shelley says but it's in those sweet times of surrender in the ordinary moments of life - taking care of sick kids or sitting in airports for hours that God reveals Himself to me and draws me closer. In those moments when I surrender to His perspective I find my calling by simply asking for His assignment today.

    I wonder if He brings those pauses in the lives of those who are really seeking Him b/c He knows we'll ask Him how He's wants to love the child that is sick or bless the man who's serving coffee at Starbucks. Those are real times of ministry and I pray that today HE will reveal not His plans but His heart - to you and through you!

    Blessings,
    Renee

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