Thursday, July 17, 2008

Planks and Beams

I take pride (that's a clue) in not being able to think of anything when a speaker asks what we are hanging onto that we should give up to God. My spirit puffs up as I think of all the stuff I have taken care of over the past 5 years. Then, a sin I could hardly see due to the large piece of wood in my eye comes into view. I realize I have rationalized maintaining control over my first three kids since the beginning of my second marriage, instead of letting my husband in on the discussions or issues taking place. As I write this, my heart is beating faster. Not allowing the God-ordained head of my household have much say into the lives of his step-children flat out says I am not at the level of trust with God that I would like to be. If I want to live my life submitted to God's will, I have to be willing to go wherever that is. And if Rob does not support a decision of mine, I have to remember that God is in control. When I make decisions without him, or Him, I am being prideful and willful. And probably not doing what I should be if I have to do it in secret, with the cliff notes coming later. I have to go now. I owe someone a huge apology.
"If I confess my sin, He is faithful to forgive me and cleanse me from all unrighteousness"
1 John 1:9

1 comment:

  1. Wow, what a revelation! I love hearing how God is speaking to you...

    I am very guilty of hiding stuff from Joe and then assuming he has blessed it...I have realized it, and been sorry, but I am still very tempted to do it. Actually turning from sin is hard work.