I am feeling frustrated today. I feel like every time I open my mouth at home, someone is getting upset with me. It isn't always the same someone; sometimes it's the husband, sometimes it's the little kids, sometimes it's the big ones. The weird part is, I am not trying to be difficult. I am trying to be nice. I am trying to be generous with what I have. I am trying to share what I have learned. On every level, though, and in almost every action, I am met with resistance. Or I am told why my way is wrong. Here's the rub, though: I have lined up my thoughts and actions with God's word. I am trying to honor God with my choices. I am not trying to be self-righteous, but according to a few opinions it seems to come naturally. In every instance, I am wanting to set a better example than one I have set in the past. To paraphrase 1 Peter 4:19, am I suffering for doing God's will?Or, is all the opposition and hostility a sign that I am in the wrong? How do I know? I feel like I am standing in a very gray place today.
Afterthoughts: Thanks, Luanne, for your wise counsel. That, combined with the Voice of Hope class that I attended last night, gave me a lot of room to think. I probably do come across like a ton of bricks, instead of gently and with love. A quote by St. Francis of Assisi seems appropriate here: Preach the gospel to everyone, using words rarely. Or something like that. Stop talking, in a nutshell. Pray more. Stop acting like it all depends on me to hold everything together. Be quiet and give God room to work. Not easy for a self-confessed control freak.